At some point, that stopped. I'm trying to figure out exactly when. Over the last couple of nights before winding down for bed, I've reread some old blog posts. I think I stopped loving it as much when I started making it too technical. When I started getting the reactive hypoglycemia symptoms, it became a lot of work to balance endurance cardio workouts with vegetarian nutrition. I guess it became too much work and I got overwhelmed.
Around that same time, my priorities changed from being all about me and my adventurous single life to being about mine and Josh's relationship and life goals. My life will probably never be all about me again. I'm marrying Josh and we'll eventually start a family together.
To love running again, I need to make time for me. I'll be more useful to everyone else in my life when I'm healthy and happy. I also need to think about it all a little bit less. When I went from couch potato to half marathon runner, I wasn't calculating my protein/carb ratio or constantly analyzing my pace. I didn't worry about whether or not I'd be too tired to do anything else. I just did what I wanted to do. I followed my training plan without driving myself crazy in the process.
I read my race recaps from 2009-2010 then stopped reading. I loved running those races. I also read some of the posts leading up to those races. (Here is the training plan that got me my half marathon PR.) I was so excited, determined, happy, proud, and disciplined about those races. That's all I needed to read because those feelings are the feelings I want to remember. Those are the feeling I want to feel about running again.
- Follow the plan and don't over think it. The plan is good. The plan will get you where you want to be.
- Feel the run. Feel the pavement. Feel the air. Feel the sun, rain, and wind.
- Be in the moment. You can't tackle that to do list while you're running, so don't even think about it until you're done.
- I'm excited to relive the new and adventurous feelings all over again through her, because it is new and adventurous for her.
- I'm excited to follow a training plan that's actually training me for something. My weekly plans have been great, but knowing I didn't have a race to get ready for made it easy to slack off. Now I have a quarter marathon to train for!
- I'm excited to do the first half of the race, then spectate the rest. I've volunteered for a race before, but have never been a spectator. I'm excited to hang out at the oceanfront to cheer for other runners while I wait for Liz to finish her half. (I hope this happens, anyway. I don't know how the shuttle works.)
- I'm excited to see Liz finish her half of the race!
- I'm super excited to celebrate with her at the end! It will be the best celebration knowing we both worked our asses off to get here and did our absolute best.